hiiiii.

i love college. love it. it is so much more awesome than high school.

zach and i are magnificent. yeah yeah, a lot of people say college is super hard for couples, yada yada yada. i think that's a load of crap. any couple who can't make the transition didn't compromise enough. it's all about adapting to change. it happens, deal with it. sorry if i'm ranting. i'm just tired of people complaining about things they can't do a thing about, i.e. change. everyone goes through it, yet so many people act like they're the only one dealing with stress like that. puh-lease.

i think i'm going to be able to survive all my classes. except maybe chemistry. it's a little more intense than i thought it would be. but oh well, good thing zach is a genius.

i'm pretty positive that almost every article of clothing i own is somewhere on my floor at the moment. i seriously can barely see the carpet, except for the path i've made from my bed, to my dresser, to the door. haha. time to do laundry, i suppose.

oh yeah- another thing i like about college... everyone dresses like a skank. it's glorious. i can wear work out shorts and a tshirt and pumas and no one cares. hollerrrrrrrr.

i miss playing guitar. i've tried a few days here and there in the past weeks, but my caluses have gone away and it hurts my fingers. i am promising myself right now that i'm going to suck it up and play everyday for the next week.

as much as i love summer and going to the pool and all that, i do have to say i'm ready for fall. i think it's becoming my second favorite season. i love football season, the way the air smells with all the leaves and whatnot, and the fact that i can wear jeans and a sweater and not freeze or burn up. and plus, halloween is coming up!! woo! i am definitely dressing up this year, no matter if i go to a party or not. haha.

well, this was short and random, but i just wanted to use my LJ client that i downloaded for my laptop, finally.

goodnight! (:

hi all (: livejournal tells me i haven't updated in 5 weeks. haha. too bad i don't have the livejournal client i used to use downloaded on my new laptop yet.

graduation was surreal. i'm not a high schooler anymore! it was almost as surreal as my marshall orientation thursday. i was rediculously slow and boring, since i've lived here/loved marshall since i left the hospital, and since every summer since eighth grade i'd spent at least a week there. but oh well, i made my schedule. i have a million science classes and psychology, honors 101 and college algebra. don't even ask when i have them, because i couldn't decipher my schedule if i tried. hahaha.

well, as you may/may not know, today is zachary & i's three years (:
.. too bad he's sick as a dog and currently asleep. he started feeling bad yesterday, and last night he ran a fever of 103 :( today i woke up to a text that said he didn't feel much better. after telling him it was fine that we didn't go out and about, i brought him mcdonald's to his house & sour patch kids, and we just chilled and played a bit of wii when he felt up for it. but most of the time we simply watched TV- what an exciting three years. haha. i got a little upset at one point, because it was certainly not the way i planned on spending the day. but i got over it and realized there's nothing i could do about it. it was pretty selfish of me, and afterwards i completely content laying there watching spongebob with him. 

even days like today make me realize how lucky i am to have such an amazing best friend/boyfriend. we may not see eye to eye on some things, and sometimes we can't see each other as much as we'd like. sometimes he doesn't know how to be the cutesy, cuddly boy that i fantasize him being, but it's nice to know that, at the end of the day, he's always there for me. it's the little thing he does that make me fall for him over and over and over- like the way he fixes the necklace he got me when the pendant is backwards, and how i can feel him watching me & laughing when i watch movies or play games with him. it all sounds so cheesy and i'm so not into all that, haha, but it's the truth.

anyway, i got back from the ichthus christian music festival in wilmore, ky on sunday. it was a blast and i found some new music that i really, really love. the tent i shared with my sister, leeanna (LA), and sarah burns was transformed into a swimming pool friday afternoon, though. holly rice's tent didn't quite make it through the thunderstorm/wind/torrential downpour either, so we were all forced to cram into either the boys tent, or the back of holly's van. i choose the van, because i couldn't take being so squished in a tent for more than the four hours we spent there before heading to bed, even if i could've slept near zach (what can i say? he makes a nice pillow). we slept there the remainder of the trip, which wasn't bad at all. we had a blast chatting/gossiping until 2 in the morning and launching skittles at the other tent just for giggles. god really is my number one. <b>i have so much to be thankful for.</b> i used to be timid about witnessing to others and unsure of how i'd describe how amazing god is, but after ichthus this year, i know that he feeling i get from having faith in jesus isn't able to be described. i'm not trying to be a preacher here, but anyone that doesn't know him, needs to.

well, i suppose this is the end. time for some barbara delinsky (:

so, i was really bored. and i figured i'm overdue for an update, as always.

well, tomorrow is my last day of high school. even though it's about 12 hours away, i can't figure out how i feel about that. i know i'm excited to get away from the drama and immaturity and sleeze bags, but then again, i'm going to miss a lot of things too- sporting events, the dances, spirit week, etc. but, i guess college will be cool too. haha, i'm so confused. i'm just going to go with the flow-- like i do everything else. i should mention prom was great, i'm excited for the 28973498234 graduation parties coming up, and that i've had the most fun i've ever had in my entire life this year. all good things must come to an end, so i hear.

i'm currently watching 'remember the titans'. words cannot express how much i love this movie. it makes me want to live in alabama and be a high school cheerleader. which is normally one of the last things i'd ever wish for.

i really want the juno soundtrack. it's perfect. i know the words to the songs from watching the movie a gajillion times. i just want the dang cd! burn it for me someone?

i recieved $100 from two people in the mail today, thanks to graduation annoucements. i'm thinking i'm going to save up for a new laptop. or maybe an ipod touch. i can't decide that either.

zach and i are quite amazing, if i do say so myself. we won cutest couple in senior superlatives. that makes me really happy- thanks people (:

i depserately need to go shopping, as well. maybe that's what i'll use that hundred bucks for? nah, just kidding. i almost want some straight leg jeans... but i can't decide if they'd look even relatively good on me. it's doubtful, with these thunder thighs.

i miss soccer so much. ugh, i feel so lethargic all the time! i have nothing to keep me motivated now that i don't have a starting position to work hard for. i try to go to the gym but i can hardly motivate myself to run a mile. it's so sad. and i'm fully released to whatever i want to do, physically, on monday i believe. so, i might be hitting the field every once and a while.

i am so looking forward to this summer. i don't even have a senior trip planned fully yet, but i'm just excited for the freedom and stress-less-ness (if that makes any sense at all). i love waking up with the power to decide what i do that day. and i'm definitely looking forward to the beach with my family and zach and shade. yeah. i love summer. a lot.

um, well, i guess that's all i have to say. thanks for reading; leave a comment or something!

i have discovered my biggest pet peeve:
when people think they are better then anyone/everyone else.

i haven't updated in forever. i'm just going to start randomly, then.

so, i have 82 days left of being a high school student. i think last year that would've terrified me. but i'm cool with it. yeah, i'll miss a few things about high school, i'm sure. but for the most part, i'm excited for college. like, really excited.

zach and i are pretty darn good. we've had a stressful couple weeks. but we both realized that, hey, we're high school seniors. we're not an old married couple. we know now that we might've gone a little too fast, talked about our future together a little too hopeful, and acted a little too married. who really knows where we'll end up. i'm not saying we don't want to spend the rest of our lives together- we would both love for that to happen. but if it doesn't, we'll know that we really were in love, it just didn't work out that way. it all started while discussing senior trip (which is by far the most rediculous, stressful trip i've ever planned). we were discussing bedroom options, and then zach fessed up that he didn't want to sleep with me. as his girlfriend of over two and a half years, i really felt my heart drop. it hurt my feelings more than anything ever has. but then we talked about it- and it wasn't me. it's just that he isn't ready for that. sure, we've napped on his couch many times before. but never slept overnight in one of our beds. and considering we don't have sex (and don't intend to), he just wasn't ready to do that. and now i completely understand it. i'm sure it won't be a big deal if we do happen to sleep together for one night or so. but we both know we're not ready for that as a couple. we've taken a step back. of course we love each other probably more than anything else, but we're still so young. we both have a lot of growing up to do (and i'll admit, him more than myself, by the natural way of males). and we're just going to go with the flow. we don't want to end up like the couples i see that are only in it for the sex or for the sheer fact that they've been together so long, it'd be a shame if (/when) they broke up. if we want this to last, we have to be realistic. so, that's the way we're doing things from now on. i know i probably love him more than he loves me.. that's just how females work. but it's ok. we're ok.

wow. it feels good to write all that out. and i know we're going to be the couple that's different than everyone else. but i'm sick of comparing our relationship to other couple's. i don't know why i do it, or when i started doing it. but everyone has a different take on what a relationship should be like. and i've (we've) finally made up our minds about how ours will be.

so anyway, on a lighter note... haha...
i am absolutely STOKED for the england/ireland trip. a lot of people aren't very excited. but now that a select few have dropped out of going (*cough*cyndi fuller*cough*), i'm really excited. there are going to be so many amazing places i get to see. gosh, i'm just so pumped. i would feel guilty NOT being excited, haha. we've been given this awesome opportunity that hardly any other kids get. and yeah, some parts of the trip won't be that great. but heck- i'm going to england & ireland. i'm stoked.

i miss my girls. elle and ashley. we're all so busy right now, we hardly see each other. but we've planned a catch-up day: every tuesday, during elle's lunch, ashley is going to get out of yearbook by claiming to take pictures of stuff, and i'll leave the guidance office for a few (lord knows i'll be so missed, since i do so much hard work while i'm in there), and we're going into first lunch and catching up on things with each other. it's pretty cool.

i got my prom dress today, too. it's really elegant. i love it. and you know i can't resist putting up pictures of it...


and this is what it looks like on. (but i think it's prettier on me in the least conceited way possible, because this woman is what, like, 30?)


well, i'm going to bed. that whole spill about zach and i took it out of me (; goodnight!

hey darlings.

so, senior year is more fun than i thought it'd be. and i have a much different attitude than i thought i'd have. lately it seems like miniscule things like freshmen running around in the halls and people being immture in general are getting on my nerves. maybe it's me- i'm becoming more mature, or maybe it's just that time of the month. either way, i do know i'm growing up. and i'm really, really going to like college. at first i was afraid that since i'm not a brain like most of the people i have class with this year, that i'd fall behind in college and not have enough motivation. but now it seems as though it's the opposite. i'll do better when i'm not being pushed or being told what to do constantly. which makes sense- i hate being told what to do.

one person that i rant all this to is, you guessed it- zach darling. sometimes when i have to rant about friends that get on my nerves, he listens. he listens when i talk about how much i miss soccer and how much crap i have to deal with on a daily basis- and doesn't think anything of it. you have no idea how lucky i am. heck, i don't even know how i got so lucky. but i love him, and that's all i really need to know.

homecoming was alright. not spectacular, not crappy- in between. the dinner at outback and the dj were quite dreadful, but i had fun with the people i went with, i think i looked pretty cute, and there wasn't any drama. so, it was a good night. afterwards, i simply went to zachary's and pretty much passed out [minus the alcohol, duhh]. but we were cute even as we slept/cuddled through all of casino royale.

i'm certainly very depressed that i've missed the first two episodes of the new season of grey's anatomy. i did, however, watch last week's, and am catching up by watching them online. oh, the beauty of the internet. <3

speaking of drama, as mentioned above that there was none at homecoming.. this have been MUCH more peaceful since a couple select classmates have transferred schools. the senior class is so much more united, even though we're hardly into the second six weeks of the year. but i can tell we're much closer than we ever have been, and i have to say i like it.

i'm really behind on the uploading-of-pictures-and-posting-them thing for myspace and facebook. ehh, it's probably because i pretty much don't really care anymore? mmmhmm.

well, i believe that's about it. i'm not very interesting, i know. haha (:

you have enemies? wow. that means you actually stood up for something once in your life.

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prom ruled, by the way. i'll post pictures later, probably.

(:

I'M SO EXCITED FOR PROMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM.

the decorations rule.
i love my dress.
i love my DATE (:
i love my shoes.
i love my semi-tan-ness.
i'm going to love getting my make-up done.
i'm sure i'll love my hair.
i'm excited to dance.
not so sure i'll love where we're eating...
but hell, i can deal.
promenade is going to be wonderful.... if it doesn't rain.
afterwards, i'm going to cory's. and then maybe to send's.
who knows.

i just know i'm PUMPED.

so anyway....

i'm so in love with the "alice" play, that tonight at soccer practice, we had a cawcus[sp?] race! haha. we all ran around the field screaming at the top of our lungs. it was marvelous. everyone did pretty good in the play; it's one of the best i've seen at SV.

i'm going to icthus this june with my youth group-- RELIENT K IS GOING TO BE THERE<33333333
ohhhh baby, it's going to be amazing. and zach's youth is going to. the best part-- we'll be there on the day of our two years (: that's quite the timing, if i do say so myself.

curse this freaking chemistry test tomorrow. i will never get through pharmacy school at this rate. there's no way. i better just forget that career option, haha.

baseball season is almost over. boo :(

ummm i basically have nothing else to write. see ya :)

heyyyyyyyyyyyy. time for another positive/negative entry. funnn.

postives:
- THE JOHN MAYER CONCERT SATURDAY OWNED. HE'S MY HERO, MY FUTURE HUSBAND, AND LORDY, JUST SIMPLY GORGEOUS.
- and zachary can also be descirbed as those things, too- he is the one that took me, after all. (:
- it was a fun weekend, to say the least. i never get to do stuff like that with zachary, so it was cool.
- pictures are below (:
- zach helped me through the passing of my grandfather last friday. he's amazing.
- i lived through my first history 103 exam. note, i didn't say i did good on it. haha.
- i live for going tanning after school now. it's like my personal heaven-- warm, getting a tan, listening to music-- sweeeet.

negatives:
- as you've read, my grandfather passed away last friday- the day before i left for the john mayer concert. it was somewhat expected, but then again it still came as a shock. i miss him a lot, it was harder than i thought.
- in addition to the history exam, i had fifty million other tests this week. grand. right before the six weeks ends too. but i think i did fine on most of them.
- I MISSED GREY'S ANATOMY LAST NIGHT :(
- i was excited for the show "are you smarter than a fifth grader?", but it's probably the most rediculous thing i've seen. i didn't even know some of the questions, for goodness' sake.

ummm i think that's practically it. so here's a collage of a few pictures from the john mayer concert. [mat kearney opened for him, he's the third and fourth pictures. he was pretty good, too.]



well, see ya later (:

please pray for me. and my grandpa.

he's in intensive care and not doing very well.

i simply need prayer, if you would.♥

currently loving:

- two hour delays.
- secondhand serenade. <3
- being in love.
- valentine's day presents.
- my car & it's awesome gas mileage.
- new couples.
- peppermint ice cream.
- svhs sectionals coming up!
- my grades, which rule this semester.
- no longer having braces.
- friends :] they make my life worth living.
- JOHN MAYER IN SIX DAYS♥
- and of course, zachary.

currently hating:

- KING LEOPOLD'S GHOST. gayest book ever.
- meredith [grey, grey's anatomy] died. ahhhhhh. they better bring her miraculously back to life, asap!
- winter/cold/ice/snow/grossness.
- people that think they're better than everyone.
- being sick/a girl.
- the stupid votec bus.
- still not having any money.
- everyone in my family being nerds & going to bed right now.
- my father's endless talk of soccer.
- my hands being too small to play guitar very well. boo.

well, see ya later.&heart

aloha.

i'm so tired of winter and cold, nasty weather. it's quite scary to drive in.

i got my braces off, and now my midget teeth feel naked. and i get lots of laughs from people who notice their tiny-ness. haha, oh well, i like them.

my retainers, on the other hand- can't say i like them much. they give me a headache.

valentine's day is tomorrow. i'm pretty pumped. and curious as to what zachary got me [: it's so hard getting cute stuff for boys for v-day, i've learned.

i have two chapters of king leopold's ghost to read this evening. wonderfullllll. that book needs to die. the only thing i've learned so far is that they cut off people's hands, are obsessed with rubber & killing people, and this casement guy is gay, and this stanley guy doesn't like sex. hahaha.

i'm convinced my sister is the spawn of satan. she's the most self-centered, spolied, prissy brat i've ever seen.

there's been quite the girl drama lately. all i have to say is, i stand up for what i think is right, no matter what. if you don't like it, that's not my problem, now is it?

they moved booth from thursday, since we got that day taken away, to friday. sweet jesus- i hate booth scholars. they make me want to punch someone in the ovaries.

driving to school has been an experience. i think i get later and later every day. that can't be good.

i need to go shopping. actually, i need money first. and to do that, i need a job. but that's not happening. so i guess it's no shopping for me, because i hate asking my parents for money.

i'm ready for summerrrrr, i miss it. i think next year i'm going to fly south for the winter.

i'm sad basketball season is almost over. and it also sucks that headaches prevented me from being school spirited and standing in the student section last night at the senior night game. boo.

oh yeah, i got a new lj layout. i found one i semi-like, since no one even uses lj, and coming across a pretty layout is rare.

well, i think that's about it. later loves, and happy V-DAY♥

BRACES OFF TOMORRROOOOWWWWW.
[considering it's one a.m.]

i'm pumped!!!!

i have a freaking 92.4 in english-- gahhhh. that gives me a "b" for the semester, too. crap. thank GOD i have english 101 next year, with a QUALITY teacher that i'll most likely LEARN something from. that definitely didn't happen last semester.


oh, and if any one has any of the following books they'd like to loan me for the semester [or i'll buy them from you if you don't want them anymore], i'll love you forever:
- all quiet on the western front
- wild swans
- king leopold's ghost
- why nations go to war
they're for history 103.


i also got a prom dress. it's lovely.

tell me what you think :)


( i'll leave you with a survey. )

bye!♥

i got a car sunday!

it was quite a pleasant surprise...

as you can see.

2002 silver dodge neon. i need to come up with a name for her/him/it.





just wanted to share my news :]
hope everyone else had a good three day weekend!

dear journal,

the past few weeks have been spectacular. most everything has been going my way, except for one large thing which i'll explain later.

christmas was nothing short of wonderful. i got everything wanted and then some. zach wrote me a song, i got a lovely lime green ipod, a pea coat i wanted, lots of clothes & jewelry and random junk, lots of shoes, movies, cd's, and a beautiful purse boyfriend got me that i love.

new year's was pretty fun, too. i want to cyndi's party and had a lot of fun, though not as much fun as last year, surprisingly. between listening to hilarious 90's music, trent peeing on debbie's car which was cruel, him showing his junk a million times, crazy drunk people, punching a hole in cyndi's door, watching football, etc. it was great. plus i actually got a new year's kiss this year from my lover. he got to go with me, which made me a pretty darn happy camper :)

speaking of that sillyhead boy-- he's amazing. there's no other words to describe how in love i am with him.

i'm completely, 200% ready for this semester to be over. i hate mrs. diamond's class, and algebra, too. the thing is, mrs. diamond's class could've been so much more than it has been-- there are such awesome, smart people in there. but sadly, mrs. diamond has to ruin everyone's lives and make it living hell. and mr. crow's teaching method is about the drive me over the edge. i'm so tired of being screwed over with "B's". next semester should be ten times better though.

if i haven't told you all already-- ZACH AND I ARE GOING TO SEE JOHN MAYER ON FEBRUARY 24TH. i'm pumpeddddddddddddddd. i never in a million years thought my parents [let alone HIS] would let us take an overnight trip together, even though his parents are going to be there and everything. but hey- i'm sure as heck not complaining :]

i definitely need to do some physical activity. i haven't done much except for indoor soccer games about once or twice a week, but that ends saturday. hmmmm.

basketball season has been pretty fun so far. the student section is quite fun, contrary to my previous thoughts.

ok, i'm done rambling now that it's way past my bedtime :)

comments are always appreciated.♥