be young, think smart, stay true, & just follow your heart.

uhhh...

Fri, 05 Sep 2008 04:16:57 GMT

hiiiii.

i love college. love it. it is so much more awesome than high school.

zach and i are magnificent. yeah yeah, a lot of people say college is super hard for couples, yada yada yada. i think that's a load of crap. any couple who can't make the transition didn't compromise enough. it's all about adapting to change. it happens, deal with it. sorry if i'm ranting. i'm just tired of people complaining about things they can't do a thing about, i.e. change. everyone goes through it, yet so many people act like they're the only one dealing with stress like that. puh-lease.

i think i'm going to be able to survive all my classes. except maybe chemistry. it's a little more intense than i thought it would be. but oh well, good thing zach is a genius.

i'm pretty positive that almost every article of clothing i own is somewhere on my floor at the moment. i seriously can barely see the carpet, except for the path i've made from my bed, to my dresser, to the door. haha. time to do laundry, i suppose.

oh yeah- another thing i like about college... everyone dresses like a skank. it's glorious. i can wear work out shorts and a tshirt and pumas and no one cares. hollerrrrrrrr.

i miss playing guitar. i've tried a few days here and there in the past weeks, but my caluses have gone away and it hurts my fingers. i am promising myself right now that i'm going to suck it up and play everyday for the next week.

as much as i love summer and going to the pool and all that, i do have to say i'm ready for fall. i think it's becoming my second favorite season. i love football season, the way the air smells with all the leaves and whatnot, and the fact that i can wear jeans and a sweater and not freeze or burn up. and plus, halloween is coming up!! woo! i am definitely dressing up this year, no matter if i go to a party or not. haha.

well, this was short and random, but i just wanted to use my LJ client that i downloaded for my laptop, finally.

goodnight! (:

too bad i'm not tired.

Thu, 10 Jul 2008 05:30:39 GMT

well hey.

i'm pretty bored and i just decided to randomly write this.

so, i just found new music that i'm super excited about. matt nathanson is definitely rising on my list of favorites. and i just found him ten minutes ago. where has he been all my ife, and why was i not informed of his being?! for one, i love his style of music. it's mellow and honest and everything i love. and second, i love his lyrics. again with the honesty thing, and he explains things exactly how i've always wanted to but could never find words for. look him up & take a listen. i like his less popular songs, according to itunes, but maybe that's just me being a music snob? haha, i said i'd never be like that. but oh well.

zach is finally (even though it was only a week) back from vacation. he had some killer sunburn on his arms and shoulders, so i couldn't cuddle him much at first. but tonight we got in the cuddling that i missed while he was gone (and even before that, because he was super sick). it's so cliche to say, but the whole 'i'm-invincible-when-i'm-in-his-arms' thing is so true. i feel so safe and perfect. which he is for me. i'm guilty of doubting us when things don't go my way (i.e, when he's sick as mentioned and can't do much of anything fun and we just sit with each other, etc.), but then it's nights like tonight when the doubts are SO far from my mind. i love it. i love us. i really, really hope we last a long time.

i am also rediculously excited for going on vacation in nine days. i miss hilton head, greg russel, the lighthouse, and of course- the beach. and this year it will be even more of paradise, because zach is joining us. i am so excited for that. it's normally a strictly family-only vacation, and for it to have been my parents idea to bring him (& shade, even though he is now not going, long story), makes me very happy. i'm ready to get away from this place for a week, haha.

i'm slacking on my tan this year; it's so pathetic. the weather has not been very cooperative and my grandparents pool, where i normally spend 5 of 7 days a week, has had a bunch of problems. no more excuses- i'm getting a killer tan before the beach, no matter what!

i've realized i really, really, really wish i had more motivation to work out. it's not like i'm a heffer or anything, i just wish i was more toned. especially my humongous legs, yuck (correction, i actually love my left leg. it's still skinny from surgery because i can't build 10 years of soccer muscle back. it's mostly the right leg i wish was less huge). but i can never get myself up, find my running shoes and knee brace, and go out and do it. i guess i'm still scared it'll be painful? ...stupid ACL.

my eighteenth birthday is in 13 days. woo! i can now buy cancer sticks that i'll never touch, lottery tickets that won't get me any richer, and porn- which is just disgusting! but it will be great- i'll be at the beach with the people i love most, with the exception of my bests. but they know i wish they could be there or i could be here. lauren kay just turned eighteen, too, go us! i cannot believe i'm about to become a legal adult. i definitely don't feel like it. but hey, i'm fine with it. i can't stop time, so why harp on it going too fast? just go with the flow.

well, i believe this is the end. thanks for reading my random, wandering thoughts (:

three years.

Sun, 22 Jun 2008 04:06:20 GMT

hi all (: livejournal tells me i haven't updated in 5 weeks. haha. too bad i don't have the livejournal client i used to use downloaded on my new laptop yet.

graduation was surreal. i'm not a high schooler anymore! it was almost as surreal as my marshall orientation thursday. i was rediculously slow and boring, since i've lived here/loved marshall since i left the hospital, and since every summer since eighth grade i'd spent at least a week there. but oh well, i made my schedule. i have a million science classes and psychology, honors 101 and college algebra. don't even ask when i have them, because i couldn't decipher my schedule if i tried. hahaha.

well, as you may/may not know, today is zachary & i's three years (:
.. too bad he's sick as a dog and currently asleep. he started feeling bad yesterday, and last night he ran a fever of 103 :( today i woke up to a text that said he didn't feel much better. after telling him it was fine that we didn't go out and about, i brought him mcdonald's to his house & sour patch kids, and we just chilled and played a bit of wii when he felt up for it. but most of the time we simply watched TV- what an exciting three years. haha. i got a little upset at one point, because it was certainly not the way i planned on spending the day. but i got over it and realized there's nothing i could do about it. it was pretty selfish of me, and afterwards i completely content laying there watching spongebob with him.

even days like today make me realize how lucky i am to have such an amazing best friend/boyfriend. we may not see eye to eye on some things, and sometimes we can't see each other as much as we'd like. sometimes he doesn't know how to be the cutesy, cuddly boy that i fantasize him being, but it's nice to know that, at the end of the day, he's always there for me. it's the little thing he does that make me fall for him over and over and over- like the way he fixes the necklace he got me when the pendant is backwards, and how i can feel him watching me & laughing when i watch movies or play games with him. it all sounds so cheesy and i'm so not into all that, haha, but it's the truth.

anyway, i got back from the ichthus christian music festival in wilmore, ky on sunday. it was a blast and i found some new music that i really, really love. the tent i shared with my sister, leeanna (LA), and sarah burns was transformed into a swimming pool friday afternoon, though. holly rice's tent didn't quite make it through the thunderstorm/wind/torrential downpour either, so we were all forced to cram into either the boys tent, or the back of holly's van. i choose the van, because i couldn't take being so squished in a tent for more than the four hours we spent there before heading to bed, even if i could've slept near zach (what can i say? he makes a nice pillow). we slept there the remainder of the trip, which wasn't bad at all. we had a blast chatting/gossiping until 2 in the morning and launching skittles at the other tent just for giggles. god really is my number one. <b>i have so much to be thankful for.</b> i used to be timid about witnessing to others and unsure of how i'd describe how amazing god is, but after ichthus this year, i know that he feeling i get from having faith in jesus isn't able to be described. i'm not trying to be a preacher here, but anyone that doesn't know him, needs to.

well, i suppose this is the end. time for some barbara delinsky (:

conclusion: i'm the most indecisive person ever.

Thu, 15 May 2008 00:38:41 GMT

so, i was really bored. and i figured i'm overdue for an update, as always.

well, tomorrow is my last day of high school. even though it's about 12 hours away, i can't figure out how i feel about that. i know i'm excited to get away from the drama and immaturity and sleeze bags, but then again, i'm going to miss a lot of things too- sporting events, the dances, spirit week, etc. but, i guess college will be cool too. haha, i'm so confused. i'm just going to go with the flow-- like i do everything else. i should mention prom was great, i'm excited for the 28973498234 graduation parties coming up, and that i've had the most fun i've ever had in my entire life this year. all good things must come to an end, so i hear.

i'm currently watching 'remember the titans'. words cannot express how much i love this movie. it makes me want to live in alabama and be a high school cheerleader. which is normally one of the last things i'd ever wish for.

i really want the juno soundtrack. it's perfect. i know the words to the songs from watching the movie a gajillion times. i just want the dang cd! burn it for me someone?

i recieved $100 from two people in the mail today, thanks to graduation annoucements. i'm thinking i'm going to save up for a new laptop. or maybe an ipod touch. i can't decide that either.

zach and i are quite amazing, if i do say so myself. we won cutest couple in senior superlatives. that makes me really happy- thanks people (:

i depserately need to go shopping, as well. maybe that's what i'll use that hundred bucks for? nah, just kidding. i almost want some straight leg jeans... but i can't decide if they'd look even relatively good on me. it's doubtful, with these thunder thighs.

i miss soccer so much. ugh, i feel so lethargic all the time! i have nothing to keep me motivated now that i don't have a starting position to work hard for. i try to go to the gym but i can hardly motivate myself to run a mile. it's so sad. and i'm fully released to whatever i want to do, physically, on monday i believe. so, i might be hitting the field every once and a while.

i am so looking forward to this summer. i don't even have a senior trip planned fully yet, but i'm just excited for the freedom and stress-less-ness (if that makes any sense at all). i love waking up with the power to decide what i do that day. and i'm definitely looking forward to the beach with my family and zach and shade. yeah. i love summer. a lot.

um, well, i guess that's all i have to say. thanks for reading; leave a comment or something!

Sat, 05 Apr 2008 04:23:40 GMT

i have discovered my biggest pet peeve:
when people think they are better then anyone/everyone else.

Sun, 02 Mar 2008 05:22:31 GMT

i haven't updated in forever. i'm just going to start randomly, then.

so, i have 82 days left of being a high school student. i think last year that would've terrified me. but i'm cool with it. yeah, i'll miss a few things about high school, i'm sure. but for the most part, i'm excited for college. like, really excited.

zach and i are pretty darn good. we've had a stressful couple weeks. but we both realized that, hey, we're high school seniors. we're not an old married couple. we know now that we might've gone a little too fast, talked about our future together a little too hopeful, and acted a little too married. who really knows where we'll end up. i'm not saying we don't want to spend the rest of our lives together- we would both love for that to happen. but if it doesn't, we'll know that we really were in love, it just didn't work out that way. it all started while discussing senior trip (which is by far the most rediculous, stressful trip i've ever planned). we were discussing bedroom options, and then zach fessed up that he didn't want to sleep with me. as his girlfriend of over two and a half years, i really felt my heart drop. it hurt my feelings more than anything ever has. but then we talked about it- and it wasn't me. it's just that he isn't ready for that. sure, we've napped on his couch many times before. but never slept overnight in one of our beds. and considering we don't have sex (and don't intend to), he just wasn't ready to do that. and now i completely understand it. i'm sure it won't be a big deal if we do happen to sleep together for one night or so. but we both know we're not ready for that as a couple. we've taken a step back. of course we love each other probably more than anything else, but we're still so young. we both have a lot of growing up to do (and i'll admit, him more than myself, by the natural way of males). and we're just going to go with the flow. we don't want to end up like the couples i see that are only in it for the sex or for the sheer fact that they've been together so long, it'd be a shame if (/when) they broke up. if we want this to last, we have to be realistic. so, that's the way we're doing things from now on. i know i probably love him more than he loves me.. that's just how females work. but it's ok. we're ok.

wow. it feels good to write all that out. and i know we're going to be the couple that's different than everyone else. but i'm sick of comparing our relationship to other couple's. i don't know why i do it, or when i started doing it. but everyone has a different take on what a relationship should be like. and i've (we've) finally made up our minds about how ours will be.

so anyway, on a lighter note... haha...
i am absolutely STOKED for the england/ireland trip. a lot of people aren't very excited. but now that a select few have dropped out of going (*cough*cyndi fuller*cough*), i'm really excited. there are going to be so many amazing places i get to see. gosh, i'm just so pumped. i would feel guilty NOT being excited, haha. we've been given this awesome opportunity that hardly any other kids get. and yeah, some parts of the trip won't be that great. but heck- i'm going to england & ireland. i'm stoked.

i miss my girls. elle and ashley. we're all so busy right now, we hardly see each other. but we've planned a catch-up day: every tuesday, during elle's lunch, ashley is going to get out of yearbook by claiming to take pictures of stuff, and i'll leave the guidance office for a few (lord knows i'll be so missed, since i do so much hard work while i'm in there), and we're going into first lunch and catching up on things with each other. it's pretty cool.

i got my prom dress today, too. it's really elegant. i love it. and you know i can't resist putting up pictures of it...

and this is what it looks like on. (but i think it's prettier on me in the least conceited way possible, because this woman is what, like, 30?)

well, i'm going to bed. that whole spill about zach and i took it out of me (; goodnight!

Thu, 18 Oct 2007 01:39:51 GMT

hey darlings.

so, senior year is more fun than i thought it'd be. and i have a much different attitude than i thought i'd have. lately it seems like miniscule things like freshmen running around in the halls and people being immture in general are getting on my nerves. maybe it's me- i'm becoming more mature, or maybe it's just that time of the month. either way, i do know i'm growing up. and i'm really, really going to like college. at first i was afraid that since i'm not a brain like most of the people i have class with this year, that i'd fall behind in college and not have enough motivation. but now it seems as though it's the opposite. i'll do better when i'm not being pushed or being told what to do constantly. which makes sense- i hate being told what to do.

one person that i rant all this to is, you guessed it- zach darling. sometimes when i have to rant about friends that get on my nerves, he listens. he listens when i talk about how much i miss soccer and how much crap i have to deal with on a daily basis- and doesn't think anything of it. you have no idea how lucky i am. heck, i don't even know how i got so lucky. but i love him, and that's all i really need to know.

homecoming was alright. not spectacular, not crappy- in between. the dinner at outback and the dj were quite dreadful, but i had fun with the people i went with, i think i looked pretty cute, and there wasn't any drama. so, it was a good night. afterwards, i simply went to zachary's and pretty much passed out [minus the alcohol, duhh]. but we were cute even as we slept/cuddled through all of casino royale.

i'm certainly very depressed that i've missed the first two episodes of the new season of grey's anatomy. i did, however, watch last week's, and am catching up by watching them online. oh, the beauty of the internet. <3

speaking of drama, as mentioned above that there was none at homecoming.. this have been MUCH more peaceful since a couple select classmates have transferred schools. the senior class is so much more united, even though we're hardly into the second six weeks of the year. but i can tell we're much closer than we ever have been, and i have to say i like it.

i'm really behind on the uploading-of-pictures-and-posting-them thing for myspace and facebook. ehh, it's probably because i pretty much don't really care anymore? mmmhmm.

well, i believe that's about it. i'm not very interesting, i know. haha (:

Tue, 26 Jun 2007 04:40:12 GMT

you have enemies? wow. that means you actually stood up for something once in your life.

hi there (:

mmm, well, my summer has been pretty dandy. here's some highlights:

- zach and i made it to the big two years (: i do love that kid.
- ichthus was an amazing experience. i'm glad i got to share it with zach, and that i got to see RELIENT K. it was grand. minussss the crazy sunburn. ouch.
- soccer isn't really a "highlight". actually, it's somewhat disappointing. i'm disappointed in myself for not trying as hard as i should, and it's a given that jim will play favorites. hmm, what a senior year.
- elle, cynthia, AQ, and myself have had some crazy girls' nights. one involved driving around huntington for about an hour, getting slushies at speedway around 1 a.m., screaming spice girls and angry songs to people we dislike, and dancing to "i'm too sexy (for my shirt)" in the middle of the street in huntington. we get pretty crazy, haha.
- i really just don't give a care what people think. i used to say that and would convince myself that i believed it, which i did to a point. but now i can honestly say i do not care. like the saying above: having enemies just mean you've either stood up for something you're passionate about, or people are just jealous. i like that (:

and thats about all i can think of at the moment, considering it's almost one and i'm already sleep deprived. so, see ya later (:

i'm a little survey-happy. and bored.

Tue, 01 May 2007 02:07:59 GMT

survey numero uno.

Where did you get the shirt/sweatshirt you're wearing?
-- soccer.
How many bathrooms are in your house?
-- two.
Can you throw a football?
-- you bet.
Does anyone in you family have tourettes?
-- haha, no.
What time is it?
-- 9:50.
Do you like the smell of vanilla?
-- yesss.
What's the closest thing to you that's orange?
-- my chemistry binder.
What's your favorite sport?
-- soccer. or football.
Who is jealous of you?
-- i'd hope no one.
Do you like nail polish?
-- yes.
Do you know anyone named Earl?
-- ummm, not that i can think of.
What about Alyssa?
-- the girl that did my prom make up's name was alyssa i think.
Or Tony?
-- haha, negative.
Dunkin Donuts or Krispy Kreme?
-- i don't care.
Save the forest or save the whales?
-- whales. they're cuter.
How many lamps are in the room you're in?
-- two.
What kind of shoes do you have?
-- basically every kind imaginable. flats, flip flops, chucks, tennis shoes, etc.
Do you consider yourself lucky?
-- very.
Have you ever had a crush on one of your best friends?
-- zach is my best friend. so yes.
Do you live in a house or apartment?
-- house.
Do you know both your parents?
-- yeah. i live with them.
Who always says your name wrong?
-- everybodyyyyy. and it drives me crazy.
Can you tell when people are lying?
-- sometimes.
Can you play golf?
-- sort of. not well.
Whats your thoughts on gay couples?
-- i'm indifferent. i really don't mind them; i just think its sort of gross. but whatever floats your boat.
Is bush a good president?
-- hell no.
Who sits behind you in social studies?
-- i don't have that class.
Who sits next to you in social studies?
-- ....
Have you ever put a lot of thinking into killing yourself?
-- no way.
Which superhero do you want to be?
-- i think i'd like to be a girl version of spiderman or batman.
What are three of your favorite movies?
-- comedy, chick flicks,and scary.
Do you want to go to college?
-- of course.
Is anyone in your family a chef?
-- not really.
Do you own a dog?
-- yes. he's a cute one.
Which is better.. Duracell or Energizer?
-- enegizer. its keeps going and going and going and going and going and goingggg.
What's your favorite kind of weather?
-- sunny with a high of 75 [since you took my heavy heart, and made it light.] man i love me some relient k.

survey numero dos.

1. What are your initials?
- cpa.

2. What is your favorite thing to wear?
- jeans and a t-shirt. and i love skirts a lot.

3. Last thing you ate?
- a cheese stick. literally-- a stick of cheddar cheese. haha.

5. I say Shotgun, you say?
- ...bang

6. Last person you hugged?
- probably zach.

8. How many U.S states have you been to?
- a bunch.

10. Does anyone you know wanna date you?
- well, my boyfriend loves dating me. haha.

11. Name something you like physically about yourself?
- ehhhh. thats a toughie. i don't really know.

13. Who is your best friend?
- zach & lauren.

14. Why are you still up?
- it's not even late.

15. Who/What made you angry today?
- umm, my madre.

16. Favorite type of Food?
- candy. or mac & cheese.

17. Favorite holidays:
- christmas, fourth of july, halloween.

18. Do you download music?
- illegal is the way to go :P

19. Do you care if your socks are dirty?
- yessss. ew i hate dirty socks.

21. Would you date the person who posted this?
- i don't even know who it is.

22. Has anyone ever sang or played for you personally?
- yepp yepp. :)

23. Do you love anyone?
- of course. i love lots of people.

24. Do you like Bush?
- no.

25. Have you ever bungee jumped?
- i wishhhh.

27. Has anyone ten years older than you ever hit on you?
- ew, i think so.

29. Have you met a real redneck?
- i live in wayne county. what do you think.

30. How is the weather right now?
- pretty nice i suppose.

31. What are you listening to right now?
- nothing.

32. What is your current fav song?
- ummm, not really sure. i like the fray's "look after you" a lot.

33. What was the last movie you watched?
- the descent. it was scary, but really dumb.

34. Do you wear contacts?
- nope.

35. Where was the last place you went besides your house?
- soccer field.

36. What are you afraid of?
- needles. deep water. spiders, etc.

37. How many piercings have you had?
- two, one in each ear.

38. How many pets do you have?
- just my dog.

39. What's one thing you've learned?
- that i hate mrs. ross.

40. What do you usually order from Starbucks?
- it depends.

42. Have you ever fired a gun?
- just a bb gun.

43. Are you missing someone?:
- yeah.

44. Fav. TV shows?
- greys anatomy, house.

45. Do you have an iPod?:
- yes, i love it.

46. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celeb?
- doubtful.

48. Who would you like to see right now?
- boyfriend.

49. Favorite movie of all time?
- remember the titans. i love it. and the notebook is up there too.

50. Do you find yourself loved?
- yesss.

51. Have you ever been caught doing something you weren't supposed to?
- probably.

52. Favorite flower(s)?
- lillies (:

53. Butter, plain, or salted popcorn?
- buter and a little salt.

54. What Magazines are you reading?
- nothing, i don't read them much.

55. Have you ever ridden in a limo?:
- yesss, saturday actually (:

56. Has anyone you were really close to passed away recently?
- my pawpa, in feb.

58. What's something that really bugs you?
- people. haha. but seriously.

60. Do you like Michael Jackson?
- not really. he's a freak.

61. What's your favorite smell?
- clean linen.

62. Favorite baseball team?
- spring valley ;] number fourteen<3

63. Favorite cereal?
- lucky charms.

65. What's the longest time you've gone without sleep?
- probably like 36-48 hours maybe.

66. Last time you went bowling?
- forever ago.

67. Where is the weirdest place you have slept?
- ummm, in the work out room floor at the y. haha. for the MDK lock-in.

68. Who was your last phone call?
- zach i think.

69. Last time you were at work?
- i don't work.

70. What's the closest orange object to you?
-- chem. binder.

prom ruled, by the way. i'll post pictures later, probably.

(:

it's basically been forever since my last update.

Tue, 24 Apr 2007 02:44:35 GMT

I'M SO EXCITED FOR PROMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM.

the decorations rule.
i love my dress.
i love my DATE (:
i love my shoes.
i love my semi-tan-ness.
i'm going to love getting my make-up done.
i'm sure i'll love my hair.
i'm excited to dance.
not so sure i'll love where we're eating...
but hell, i can deal.
promenade is going to be wonderful.... if it doesn't rain.
afterwards, i'm going to cory's. and then maybe to send's.
who knows.

i just know i'm PUMPED.

so anyway....

i'm so in love with the "alice" play, that tonight at soccer practice, we had a cawcus[sp?] race! haha. we all ran around the field screaming at the top of our lungs. it was marvelous. everyone did pretty good in the play; it's one of the best i've seen at SV.

i'm going to icthus this june with my youth group-- RELIENT K IS GOING TO BE THERE<33333333
ohhhh baby, it's going to be amazing. and zach's youth is going to. the best part-- we'll be there on the day of our two years (: that's quite the timing, if i do say so myself.

curse this freaking chemistry test tomorrow. i will never get through pharmacy school at this rate. there's no way. i better just forget that career option, haha.

baseball season is almost over. boo :(

ummm i basically have nothing else to write. see ya :)

what the heck?!

Sat, 07 Apr 2007 02:42:22 GMT

it's definitely SNOWING on the first day of SPRING BREAK.

...dkfjgdfjghdkjfg :[

well, let's see here.

- best friend lauren kay hall and i went to the park today. it was fun. but cold.
- yesterday was my poppa bear's birthday.
- i have to get a job this summer.
- dreamland, anyone?
- zachary is in princeton for their games at greenbrier east and princeton this weekend. they won the game tonight against g.e.
- he's great. seriously.
- my sister is finally moving out of my room this week. yessssss.
- i have to pee.
- prom is in 22 days! (:
- it's going to be the bomb.
- i get my dress back from being altered tomorrow, yay.
- i have yet to get jewelry or shoes. haha, i <3 procrastination.
- easter is going to suck, because i can't even wear the outfit i bought. it'll be too freaking cold, dang it!
- i hate the snow.
- i do love my life right now, though.
- OH & I GET TO SEE RELIENT K AT ICTHUS THIS YEAR, AND I'M PUMPED.<333333
- SWITCHFOOT & SKILLET ARE AMONG OTHERS COMING THAT I LOVE LOVE LOVE.
- ummmm yeah. i think i'm finished.

laterrrr♥

positive/negative.

Sat, 03 Mar 2007 01:55:34 GMT

heyyyyyyyyyyyy. time for another positive/negative entry. funnn.

postives:
- THE JOHN MAYER CONCERT SATURDAY OWNED. HE'S MY HERO, MY FUTURE HUSBAND, AND LORDY, JUST SIMPLY GORGEOUS.
- and zachary can also be descirbed as those things, too- he is the one that took me, after all. (:
- it was a fun weekend, to say the least. i never get to do stuff like that with zachary, so it was cool.
- pictures are below (:
- zach helped me through the passing of my grandfather last friday. he's amazing.
- i lived through my first history 103 exam. note, i didn't say i did good on it. haha.
- i live for going tanning after school now. it's like my personal heaven-- warm, getting a tan, listening to music-- sweeeet.

negatives:
- as you've read, my grandfather passed away last friday- the day before i left for the john mayer concert. it was somewhat expected, but then again it still came as a shock. i miss him a lot, it was harder than i thought.
- in addition to the history exam, i had fifty million other tests this week. grand. right before the six weeks ends too. but i think i did fine on most of them.
- I MISSED GREY'S ANATOMY LAST NIGHT :(
- i was excited for the show "are you smarter than a fifth grader?", but it's probably the most rediculous thing i've seen. i didn't even know some of the questions, for goodness' sake.

ummm i think that's practically it. so here's a collage of a few pictures from the john mayer concert. [mat kearney opened for him, he's the third and fourth pictures. he was pretty good, too.]

well, see ya later (:

Fri, 23 Feb 2007 02:20:50 GMT

please pray for me. and my grandpa.

he's in intensive care and not doing very well.

i simply need prayer, if you would.♥

"short, sweet, and to the point." famous words of mrs. janet diamond. [who i strongly dislike.]

Mon, 19 Feb 2007 03:52:20 GMT

currently loving:

- two hour delays.
- secondhand serenade. <3
- being in love.
- valentine's day presents.
- my car & it's awesome gas mileage.
- new couples.
- peppermint ice cream.
- svhs sectionals coming up!
- my grades, which rule this semester.
- no longer having braces.
- friends :] they make my life worth living.
- JOHN MAYER IN SIX DAYS♥
- and of course, zachary.

currently hating:

- KING LEOPOLD'S GHOST. gayest book ever.
- meredith [grey, grey's anatomy] died. ahhhhhh. they better bring her miraculously back to life, asap!
- winter/cold/ice/snow/grossness.
- people that think they're better than everyone.
- being sick/a girl.
- the stupid votec bus.
- still not having any money.
- everyone in my family being nerds & going to bed right now.
- my father's endless talk of soccer.
- my hands being too small to play guitar very well. boo.

well, see ya later.&heart

Wed, 14 Feb 2007 02:52:10 GMT

aloha.

i'm so tired of winter and cold, nasty weather. it's quite scary to drive in.

i got my braces off, and now my midget teeth feel naked. and i get lots of laughs from people who notice their tiny-ness. haha, oh well, i like them.

my retainers, on the other hand- can't say i like them much. they give me a headache.

valentine's day is tomorrow. i'm pretty pumped. and curious as to what zachary got me [: it's so hard getting cute stuff for boys for v-day, i've learned.

i have two chapters of king leopold's ghost to read this evening. wonderfullllll. that book needs to die. the only thing i've learned so far is that they cut off people's hands, are obsessed with rubber & killing people, and this casement guy is gay, and this stanley guy doesn't like sex. hahaha.

i'm convinced my sister is the spawn of satan. she's the most self-centered, spolied, prissy brat i've ever seen.

there's been quite the girl drama lately. all i have to say is, i stand up for what i think is right, no matter what. if you don't like it, that's not my problem, now is it?

they moved booth from thursday, since we got that day taken away, to friday. sweet jesus- i hate booth scholars. they make me want to punch someone in the ovaries.

driving to school has been an experience. i think i get later and later every day. that can't be good.

i need to go shopping. actually, i need money first. and to do that, i need a job. but that's not happening. so i guess it's no shopping for me, because i hate asking my parents for money.

i'm ready for summerrrrr, i miss it. i think next year i'm going to fly south for the winter.

i'm sad basketball season is almost over. and it also sucks that headaches prevented me from being school spirited and standing in the student section last night at the senior night game. boo.

oh yeah, i got a new lj layout. i found one i semi-like, since no one even uses lj, and coming across a pretty layout is rare.

well, i think that's about it. later loves, and happy V-DAY♥

Sun, 11 Feb 2007 06:11:33 GMT

BRACES OFF TOMORRROOOOWWWWW.
[considering it's one a.m.]

i'm pumped!!!!

sweet mother of pearl.

Tue, 06 Feb 2007 23:09:37 GMT

so, i got my hair cut today. it's pretty darn short.

but i happen to love it that way :]

anywho- here's my life in a nutshell...
- i went to the movies & schlotzsky's with lauren on our snowday yesterday. good times.
- king leopold's ghost needs to die.
- cam & his wife/finacee/whatever she is had their baby thursday, she's adorable.
- my grandparent's 50th anniversary was saturday and we all had a huge open house to celebrate sunday. it was utter chaos.
- and it's snowing like a mother f'er, and i love itttt. can you say "SNOW DAYYY"?!?!
- the bears didn't win the super bowl. grossman is offically queer.
- i watched "oobi" for the first time in forever yesterday. it was marvelous. who knew a hand with eyes could be so intriguing.
- AND UNC IS GOING TO KILL DUKE TOMORROW. AND I'M QUITE PUMPED.

that's pretty much all i had to say. later lovers.

oh & zach is the best. period [:

Wed, 24 Jan 2007 20:27:08 GMT

i have a freaking 92.4 in english-- gahhhh. that gives me a "b" for the semester, too. crap. thank GOD i have english 101 next year, with a QUALITY teacher that i'll most likely LEARN something from. that definitely didn't happen last semester.

oh, and if any one has any of the following books they'd like to loan me for the semester [or i'll buy them from you if you don't want them anymore], i'll love you forever:
- all quiet on the western front
- wild swans
- king leopold's ghost
- why nations go to war
they're for history 103.

i also got a prom dress. it's lovely.

tell me what you think :)

1. Is your second toe longer than your first?
- yes, i believe so.

2. Do you have a favorite type of pen?
- can't say i do.

3. Look at your planner for March 14, what are you doing?
- nothing, i don't think. it might be mex's birthday?

4. What color are your toenails usually?
- hot pinkish, almost red.

5. What was the last thing you highlighted?
- i have no idea.

6. What color are your bedroom curtains?
- the actual curtains are off-white. the shams are plain white, as far as i can tell.

7. What color are the seats in your car?
- black :] it's exciting to be able to answer this question now, haha.

8. Have you ever had a black and white cat?
- no, i'm not a big fan of cats.

9. What is the last thing you put a stamp on?
- i don't think i've ever put a stamp on anything.

10. Do you know anyone who lives in Wyoming?
- negative.

11. Why did you withdraw cash from the ATM the last time?
- i've never done that.

12. Who is the last baby that you held?
- a little girl at church. she's precious.

13. Do you know of any twins with rhyming names?
- i have cousins named "alex" and "aaron" & of course, there's "jill" and "jameson", but they don't exactly rhyme.

14. Do you like Cinnamon toothpaste?
- yes, that's exactly what i use.

15. What kind of car were you driving 2 years ago?
- none, it was illegal.

16. Pick one: Miami Hurricanes or Florida Gators.
- i don't care. the gators, i guess.

17. Last time you went to Six Flags:
- neverrr.

18. Do you have any wallpaper in your house?
- yes, in the living room & bathroom upstairs.

19. Closest thing to you that is yellow:
- my bed sheets and comforter that i'm sitting on.

20. Last person to give you a business card?
- some lady at yellow brick road. but i found the dress i got right after that, haha.

21. Who is the last person you wrote a check to?
- no one, i don't write checks.

22. Closest framed picture to you?
- boyfriend and i at a football game. my favorite picture of us.

23. Last time you had someone cook for you?
- i guess dinner a few nights ago.

24. Have you ever applied for welfare?
- no.

25. How many emails do you have?
- probably none, i delete most of them after i read or don't read them.

26. Last time you received flowers?
- um, valentine's day my freshman year.

27. Do you think the sanctity of marriage is meant for only a man and a woman?
- yes. but i think dating another of the opposite sex is alright, if you believe it's honestly your destiny.

28. What kind of milk do you drink?
- chocolate or the vanilla kind out of the machine at school, yummmm.

29. Do you play air guitar?
- no, i play real guitar.

30. Do you take anything in your coffee?
- not even the coffee itself. ;]

31. Do you have any Willow Tree figurines?
- no idea what that is.

32. Have you ever owned a Beanie Baby?
- oh my, i used to have i think 70-some?

33. Last person you spoke to from high school:
- ha, i'm still in high school. practically eveyone i speak to is, too.

34. Last time you used hand sanitizer:
- earlier today.

35. Would you like to learn to play the drums?
- nah.

36. What color are the blinds in your living room?
- creme.

37. What is in your inbox at work?
- i don't work, sillyheads.

38. Last thing you read in the newspaper:
- about the fire at the apartments. and something about out basketball team, and dear abby.

39. What was the last pageant you attended?
- i don't think i've ever attended one.

40. What is the last place you bought pizza from?
- most likely pizza hut.

41. Have you ever worn a crown?
- definitely.

42. What is the last thing you stapled?
- i believe it a paper we had to do in english. ew.

43. Did you ever drink Clear Pepsi?
- i had not a clue that even exsisted.

44. Are you ticklish?
- to the max.

45. Last time you saw fireworks:
- fourth of july, i think.

46. Last time you had a Krispy Kreme doughnut:
- the other night at zach's church.

47. Who is the last person that left you a message and you actually returned their call?
- i think elle.

48. Last time you parked under a carport:
- never done that.

49. Do you have a black dog?
- yes, buddy is the coolest. haha.

50. Do you have any pickles in your fridge?
- i hope not, they're grosssss.

51. Are you an aunt or uncle?
- nope.

52. Who has the prettiest eyes that you know of?
- boyfriend. they're super pretty.

53. Last time you saw a semi truck:
- on the interstate, i think.

54. Do you remember Ugly Kid Joe?
- no.

55. Do you have a little black dress?
- it's more like a little white dress :]

bye!♥

vroom vroom :]

Tue, 16 Jan 2007 02:58:08 GMT

i got a car sunday!

it was quite a pleasant surprise...

as you can see.

2002 silver dodge neon. i need to come up with a name for her/him/it.

just wanted to share my news :]
hope everyone else had a good three day weekend!

Sun, 07 Jan 2007 05:11:45 GMT

dear journal,

the past few weeks have been spectacular. most everything has been going my way, except for one large thing which i'll explain later.

christmas was nothing short of wonderful. i got everything wanted and then some. zach wrote me a song, i got a lovely lime green ipod, a pea coat i wanted, lots of clothes & jewelry and random junk, lots of shoes, movies, cd's, and a beautiful purse boyfriend got me that i love.

new year's was pretty fun, too. i want to cyndi's party and had a lot of fun, though not as much fun as last year, surprisingly. between listening to hilarious 90's music, trent peeing on debbie's car which was cruel, him showing his junk a million times, crazy drunk people, punching a hole in cyndi's door, watching football, etc. it was great. plus i actually got a new year's kiss this year from my lover. he got to go with me, which made me a pretty darn happy camper :)

speaking of that sillyhead boy-- he's amazing. there's no other words to describe how in love i am with him.

i'm completely, 200% ready for this semester to be over. i hate mrs. diamond's class, and algebra, too. the thing is, mrs. diamond's class could've been so much more than it has been-- there are such awesome, smart people in there. but sadly, mrs. diamond has to ruin everyone's lives and make it living hell. and mr. crow's teaching method is about the drive me over the edge. i'm so tired of being screwed over with "B's". next semester should be ten times better though.

if i haven't told you all already-- ZACH AND I ARE GOING TO SEE JOHN MAYER ON FEBRUARY 24TH. i'm pumpeddddddddddddddd. i never in a million years thought my parents [let alone HIS] would let us take an overnight trip together, even though his parents are going to be there and everything. but hey- i'm sure as heck not complaining :]

i definitely need to do some physical activity. i haven't done much except for indoor soccer games about once or twice a week, but that ends saturday. hmmmm.

basketball season has been pretty fun so far. the student section is quite fun, contrary to my previous thoughts.

ok, i'm done rambling now that it's way past my bedtime :)

comments are always appreciated.♥

Sun, 17 Dec 2006 00:24:33 GMT

hey there [:

EIGHT DAYS UNTIL MY FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR. i'm pumped!!
especially because zach was a total sweetheart and wrote me the cutest song imaginable AND recorded it & put it on a CD for me. [yeah yeah, i already know and it's not even christmas yet. but i begged him to tell me, haha.] he's so cute.

i hardly have any money to do shopping with though, which definitely sucks. luckily i never buy fir my parents or family [bad, i know], and so that doesn't bother me much. i wish i did have money so i could get them something anyway. and brit & elle and i are just getting each other little, silly things. so thats not a big deal. the only person i really have to buy for is zach. but that's perfectly fine. my parents know how much he means to me and don't mind lending me money for him. and i have a special project in mind for him, too. [:

i know not having money to shop with and being worried about presents and whatnot isn't a very good christmas-like attitude. but honestly, who can't help but be worried by it nowdays? of course, i still am so grateful for jesus in my life. he's blessed me with so many amazing things, and i cherish all of them. he's the reason for the season, after all.

have i ever mentioned i hate school? mrs. diamond's class is a huge waste of time and energy, i have a lot of stupid classes [piano, guitar, GREAT BOOKS?!] which could have been much more beneficial classes, and algebra is overwhelming to the max & mr. crow's teaching method is horrid [although zach helps me through that class a lot]. grrrr. but what can i say?-- it is spring valley. i can't believe people actually like it there. ew.

i went to a lock-in at zachary's church last night [friday-saturday]. it was mucho fun. i only slept twenty minutes, and zach didn't sleep at all for fear of having something done to him, haha. so he just sat there while i slept on him :P it's not my fault he makes a good pillow.

my parents went to the dec. 13th showing of "we are marshall". i'm so jealous, they said it was good. not an oscar-award-winner or the next "best football movie", but it was good. i can settle for that. i didn't expect it to be anything of the sort in the first place.

oh yeah, i took the ACT last saturday. it went alright. i don't think i did too well on the math or reading sections, mostly due to poor time management on my part. good thing i'm good at writing though- that comes so easily to me. and i've decided i'll probably end up going to marshall for college. my GPA/grades aren't high enough to get any major scholarships to go out of state, and since promise only covers west virginia schools, marshall just seems like the best option for me. i guess i'm fine with that, though. there's nothing wrong with it and i'd already know my way around and have credits. plus, as i think my career is slowly becoming apparent as a journalist, they have a good journalism program from what i've been told. it wasn't my original plan, but heck- i figure since i'm good at writing and i like photography, why not put it to good use as a journalist or photo-journalist?

oh yeah, and if any of you guitarist that read this know anywhere i can get a good, quality guitar for around $100 or a little over, let me know. i want/need one-- i don't want that quality guitar class to go to waster ;P haha, but seriously. i'm learning to play pretty well.

well, i think this was long enough. ta-ta for now :)

"be young, think smart, stay true, and just follow you heart." --the atartis :)

my life in four sentences.

Wed, 29 Nov 2006 04:55:22 GMT

school sucks. but life is grand. i love my friends. zach is perfect.

the end.

Sun, 19 Nov 2006 04:47:01 GMT

hey there.

so, life's been pretty marvelous lately. christmas is in 36 days, and i'm completely SIKED.

recap of the past week-ish of my life:
- we had two days off this week and it was heaven. i'm so glad there's no school for the week ahead.
- zachary have hung out tons lately :) i just love him; he's definitely my better half.
- tonight we had an indoor soccer game against HHS-- we tied and i scored, which RULED because it's major revenge on their goalie, who isn't exactly my favorite person in the world.
- downside to the game: i got a busted lip and blood blister on the bottom on my foot-- NASTY.
- i'm watching "elf" right now and it freaking rules<3333333333
- i got an offer to play for the rowdies... and i honestly can't decide if i want to or not. i'm sure it'd help a lot, but i just don't know if i'm experienced/skilled enough to play. meg is on there, so at least i'd know someone, and they only practice/work out once a week. so, i'm in serious debate over it.
- i've gone to the wayne football playoff games for the past two fridays with boyfriend-- and i've come to the conclusion that wayne rules. i wish our team could be as good- but lord knows that'll never happen. haha. plus i got see a bunch of my favorite pioneers, which was cool :)

ummm that's about it really.

thanksgiving is of course, is thursday... and i can't say i'm the least bit excited. i see the part of my family i'll be spending it with every sunday, so it's not like it's a big deal. i hate pretty much the food and it's always pretty boring. haha. but oh well.

zach and i's year & five months is tuesday. pretty awesome if i do say so myself. :)

so, i'm pretty sure i'm done rambling. comments, pretty please!♥

Sun, 29 Oct 2006 02:25:56 GMT

love is complete bliss.

"oh my my, oh hell yes, you got to put on that party dress..."

Tue, 17 Oct 2006 02:15:35 GMT

life is marvelous. :)

this weekend was absolutely wonderful. friday was booth scholars, which i normally dread and hate going to. but, contrary to popular belief, this one actually wasn't so bad. we had sean as our workshop instructor, which meant we could practically do whatever we wanted. it was a computer class, and so i embraced my inner geek and played around with stuff [and myspace of course] the whole time. that evening was the senior night football game. which we actually won. oh my, what is the world coming to? haha. that was pretty fun... other than the fact that i had to sell 50/50 raffle tickets half the time, and if i were a guy i'd have probably said "i'm freezing my balls off" or something of that nature, because i swear it was below freezing.

saturday was probably my least favorite day of the weekend. zach was gone all day to his sister's volleyball tournament and to a concert that evening, so it wasn't the greatest. but i used the day to clean my room, which it dreadfully needed, and then went to gino's with the family and then went to the mall. awesome.

sundayyyyyy, ah, my favorite. i spent almost the entire day with zach. i went to his church in the morning. he played guitar to a few songs that jeremy and cory sang to. they all did great :) i swear, if i'm ever as good as he is at guitar, that'll be my greatest accomplishment yet. he's amazing at it. and is all in all amazing himself :) but anyway, after church we went to ponderosa. while on the way there, i drove on the interstate for the first time. laaaame. i thought it was going to be much harder than it actually was. psh, oh well. so we ate and what not, then we came back here, i changed clothes and we hung out a while, and then went to my grandparents' house with the whole family until we went to see "the guardian". i highly suggest everyone see it, it's a darn good movie if you ask me. so that wasn't over until almost seven, which made him late for church. haha, and we were lucky enough to get stopped by a train in lavalette. haha. just more time i got to spend with him, the way i see it.

he makes me so happy. i seriously don't know what i'd do without him. he made me a CD saturday night for us to listen to in the car on sunday, & he put all the "songs that reminded him of me" on it, and the cutest part - he titled it "the i love you cd". aaaaaaa-mazing. :)

i'm sure everyone reading this is thinking- "oh please, spare me of your rediculous boyfriend rant & how amazing he is!" well, sorry charlies- read it & weep. :P

i think that's enough for now. comments are always appreciated♥